Hearing God’s Voice For Yourself

So in parts 1 and 2 of this series I talked about Five Things Keeping You From Hearing God’s Voice, and Five Things To Help You Hear The Voice of God respectively.  Just to give a quick recap, the five things that can hinder us from hearing the voice of God are Sin, Pride, Lack of Understanding, Trials & The Cares of This World, and Our Past.  The five things that can help us hear the voice of God are Repentance from Sin, Submission to God’s Divine Order, The Word Coupled with Prayer, Patience & Perseverance, and Forgiveness & Moving Forward.  If you haven’t read parts 1 and 2 of this series yet, you can read them here, and here.

In this part of the series I want to focus on hearing God for yourself.  In the last two parts I focused a lot on how God talks to us through others because so many times we want to hear God for ourselves but don’t really want to listen when he speaks to us through others, or maybe that was just me. Continue reading

My Miscarriage Story

Since this month is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month I decided to share my miscarriage story. It’s something that I’m very open about because when I got pregnant I was not aware of how common miscarriages are. I was afraid that maybe something was wrong with me or that I couldn’t have kids, but the truth is that approximately 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage. Continue reading

I Wasted A Year and a Half of My Life

Tuesday September 20th as I sat talking to my husband, I realized that I had wasted a year and a half of my life…………………………………………………………………………………………

…………………..on fear.

I had wasted a year and a half of my life being afraid of what he would say, what he would do, how he would respond, and if he would leave: “Was he trying to control me?” I feared. “If I make a huge mistake will he forgive me?” I asked myself.  “Can I really tell him what I’m thinking and how I feel?” I thought to myself.  My fears had consumed my life and had threatened to consume my marriage. Continue reading

Encourage Yourself

I was sitting in the hospital over the weekend due to having suicidal thoughts wondering why I was here again. I had just been admitted back in October of 2015 and put on medication, and after only 3 weeks I had come off the medication and had been handling my thoughts and emotions very well considering I was pregnant. Yet here I was again in the hospital seeking to be put back on my medication.

Needless to say I felt like a failure.

I felt inadequate as a wife because I was having a hard time handling life’s circumstances and stressors, I felt inadequate as a mother because I wanted to kill myself with my precious baby girl inside of me at 7 months pregnant, and I felt inadequate as a Christian because I had been neglecting my relationship with God.

As I sat in the hospital contemplating these things, my husband encouraged me to read my bible. He knew that I had been neglecting my relationship with God lately and that I needed some re-direction so he told me to read Ephesians 4 and that we would discuss it later. The verse that really jumped out at me and really encouraged me in that moment was Ephesians 4:29. Continue reading

A Prayer For When The Road Gets Rough

I wrote out this prayer as a prayer of encouragement for myself during a time when I felt weary. I felt like I couldn’t wait any longer for the promises of God and I just wanted to give up.  Instead of throwing in the towel, I decided to use my sword, which is the word of God to defeat the enemy and his attack on my mind.

It does not matter what you may be going through, maybe you’re waiting for a promise from God and it seems like it’s never going to come, or maybe just everyday life may be getting harder and harder. Where ever you are in life, this prayer is a good prayer of declaration using the word of God to speak over your life and into your spirit. Even if you don’t feel different after saying this prayer, just remember that faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God (Rom 10:17). Just reading the word of God to yourself is strengthening your faith whether you feel like it is or not. I pray that this prayer is a blessing to you like it continues to be for me. Continue reading

God, You Owe Me Something.

Have you ever felt like God owed you something for doing the right thing, or living the right way? I know I can’t be the only one who has felt this way before.  Today I want to write about a personal experience that I’ve had about how sometimes as Christians, if we’re not careful, we can begin to feel like we deserve certain things or that God owes us certain things for “good behavior.”

Now, this may not be the case with everyone, but that was the case with me and boy did God slap me with his word to get me together. The area I struggled with was marriage. I felt like I deserved a good husband and that I deserved to be married and not have to wait because I had stayed a virgin. Continue reading

Living In The Land Of Guilt

I was listening to Songza one day, a song app much like Pandora except better, when No Condemnation by Anthony Evans came on. The song didn’t really grab my attention initially. I was more so passively listening to it as I was preparing my things to leave from work.  It wasn’t until the voice of a woman delivering a short message came on that this song had my full attention.  She said,

“One of the main ways that the enemy will paralyze, and disable, and disarm the people of God is to put a burden of guilt and shame on them, but the weight of our sin it’s no longer ours to bear. Our savior took it all, he paid the full price on Calvary and the enemy knows that if you ever really grab ahold of that truth, you’ll really be victorious.  And here’s the truth, there is therefore now no condemnation for those of us who are in Christ Jesus.  So be free my friend, be free.” Continue reading

Resurrection Sunday – The Days After

It’s 1 AM the day after Resurrection Sunday and while I’m thinking about the events of the previous day I realize that, for me, Resurrection Sunday was more about making sure I had a cute dress that complimented my pregnant body and making sure the youth praise team was on point then it was about celebrating Jesus. I realized that I didn’t even get to enjoy the celebration because I was so busy running around during church, calming my nerves down from the musical mess ups we had, snacking on candy to keep me from passing out, and running after kids during children’s church. I didn’t even get to enjoy the preached word.  Continue reading

Allow The Holy Ghost To Do His Job

Throughout my walk with Christ I have noticed that one of the issues we have sometimes is wanting to force the image of Christ on to others, or wanting to force them into doing the right thing. I myself have been guilty as charged.

As soon as someone comes to Christ we want to change how they dress, how they carry themselves, and what they do and that is not our place.

Sometimes it’s done with good intentions because we care about the person and want to see them do the right thing. Other times it’s done from a place of religiousness, thinking that unless a person changes on the outside than they’re not changed on the inside. Continue reading

Being Disciplined By God

Do you remember when you were younger and got spankings? Boy do I remember, my mother did not play. I HATED getting spankings and I would always silently say to myself, if that woman (yes she was “that woman” not my mother when I was being disciplined) loved me she would not spank me.

Sounds like something you may have said?

Even if you didn’t get spankings I’m sure you got disciplined by your parents some kind of way and shared the same sentiment. I remember I couldn’t wait until I became an adult so that I could do what I wanted to do and I wouldn’t have to go through being disciplined by my parents anymore.  When I became a Christian I got a rude awakening. Continue reading